penin?!

26 February 2009
13:32

sejak dia bekerja di KL..dia selalu pulang lewat kerumah...
entah kemana dia pergi...duduk lepak di ofis atau keluar..
entahla aku sindri kurang pasti....

kepala pening-pusing....
terasa mahu pitam...
assignment effect on the germany economy belum dihabiskan lagi...
baru siap inflation+GDP=xtau betul atau tidak sebab kepala sudah pusing membaca sebegitu banyak fakta...rasanya perlu ada lagi yang perlu ditambah...
anyone?who's willing to help me?hehe...(*_*)

thanx bang long`

25 February 2009
21:40

hehe~rasa terharu coz bang long ada six sense...
msk ni da kali kedua die leh rasa yang aku ni xchat..
Alhamdulillah...glad to haf sumone like him in ma lyfe...
well...tomorrow die ada interview gomen..at last..
lama tol member tggu nak dpt panggilan...
hopefully die dptla keje tu...
adik doakan kat cni tau!
chaiyok!!!!(^_^)

May your life be blessed~

25 February 2009
16:01

baru pas mangun tdo...
hehe...td quite bengang ttg smthg then trs tdo...oppss ttdo sbnanya..

basically seminggu i had to skip classes...and next week there are 5 papers waiting for me...huhu yup!!!
masakla aku kali ni...

besok aku kene wat another check up..pray real hard..hopefully "dat sumthing" will goes missing..can neh?huhu...

wadeva it is...i feel blessed and thankful..
i have many people who lurve and stand next to me...
ma family+ma abang+ma housemates...farra-tika-eya+ma close fwens
thanx guys...i cannot imagine ma life without ol of ya...surely be kinda miserable...

may Allah bless u all~no matter wut~

donno y but tis song stuck inside ma head...

rememba'
listen as ur days unfolds
challenge wat da future holds
try and keep ur head up to da sky
lovers, they may cause u tears
go ahead release ur fears....

you gotta b bad,you gotta b bold,you gotta b wiser
you gotta b hard,you gotta b tough,you gotta b stronger
you gotta b cool,you gotta b calm,you gotta stay together
all i noe,love will save the world

keputusan?

still on da 24th of february 2009...

semalam p medical check up...
tot there was nothing..unfortunately there is sumthing...
kinda suprised wen i first find out..as well as ma abang...
sedih sgt2 tp kene tabahkan hati..
lumrah hidupkan?

aku boleh lihat dari perubahan muka+mata dia yang terkejut+sedih tuk aku...
aku?of course aku rasa sedih..tp kalo aku sedih,aku akan buat org sekeliling aku sedih jugak!
aku xnak mereka bersimpati dengan aku..
jadi aku perlu kelihatan tabah walau hakikatnya hati ini merintih hiba...

well,tis thursday i need to go again for another follow up..
i xtau nak pk apa...aku hanya mampu berdoa agar ianya xmenjadi lebih teruk...
Ya Allah,tabahkan hatiku..

p/s:semoga perancangan kita berdua akan terlaksana abang...Amin....

lidah kelu~hati membeku

24 february 2009
16:33

bila mana aku sudah terlalu lama kepala seakan2 beku...
gosshhh..so many things happened ere and there..it juz dat i dun noe where 2 start..
aku tau dlm hidup ni terlalu byk perkara yang berlaku..
dugaan namanya kan?
termasuk jugak kawan..kawan datang dan pergi..
aku sedih tp susah kalo dapat kawan yang xreti nak menghargai+amik da ONLY kawan baik perempuan yang aku ada..thanx beb tuk segala SESALAN yang dikatakan....

perlu ke aku menyesal tuk semua tu?
yup!aku menyesal kerana aku xpernah abandon ko..aku xpernah mtk apa2 balasan..
i wish u could understand me better than anyone elese..instead u r not!and it makes me sad...damn sad...
aku xkan maki atau marah atau wad so eva..i feel terrible aite now...
i wish for ur happiness +i pray dat sumday GOD will open ur heart n u will realize ol tons of misakes dat u've done...
may u find peace in ur life...juz rememba--life is a cycle...u hurt me today..probably sumday there might be another person who will did da same thing dat u have done to me...
heh...wat u gives..u get back...

hectic day+week+month

19 February 2009
14:41

urm..its been two weeks i havent update ma blog...
im not in a gud shape currently...
stress out damn much!!!!
trying up to cope wif ol da situations....

cramp+tired=assigments+quizzes+test+"annoying" person dat i have to face....
huhu...

hurt+sick+dissapoint me~

.taggy.]

27 January
11:10am

been tagged by hamizah, she's a fwen of mine back in primary skul~SKA97

so now instead of desribing 10 things dat makes me hepi,ive decided to describe 10 things bout maself

1. i love baking cakes--soooo soooo much!!!hehe..esp choc cake since dat is ma ol time fav~yummmy!!!
2. seorang yang kecil!yup...but now ive gain weight..hehe..which is so not ok since nmpak lg pendek...wawawa...

3. consider maself as fussy a.ka. cerewet mcm org tua..haha..n even ma own self cannot tahan sumtimes...

4. tend to get stressed easily!!yup!dat's me...poor me aite?

5. driving is ma passion...esp at zig zag road..haha..bahaya tol!!!

6. craving for ice lemon tea+dark chocolate+cheese cake..haha..

7. xreti nak pretend dpn org...nmpk obvious gler!!hehe..itu kelemahan saya

8. lurve watching horror movies/drama!!serious gler suka!!!

9. lurve babies+kanak2 sgt2!!!i do tink i can b a gud mother in da future!ceh!perasan btol!

10. last but not least..deeply in lurve wif ma abang...(^_^)

: ari sabtu pertama

17 January 2009
21:35

hehe..hepi new year 2009..
im so damn bz n didnt haf time to update ma blog..
ceh!ayat poyo jerk!

well,overall today aku berjaya masak setelah lama tidak memegang ol those cooking tools...haha...
summore-manage to speak da truth to sumone who's happen to be ma bezfwen..but we haven't been "bezfwen" nymore since she gave birth last year..huhu...
i feel sad but i've decided to move on wif ma lyfe...
summore da feeling isnt there anymore...
so, its better for us to live in our on way~

well,any hot issues nowdays?
yup!currently ol ppl out there, in tis entire world r concern+sympathy wif da Palsetine-Israel issues...INCLUDING me..i couldnt bear to hear anymore violence by killing those innocent civillian esp kids+women +damaging ol those things since it hurts me da most!

i do feel touched of wad happend there..i couldnt imagine if i were in their place..
goshhh...donno wat else to say..surely will feel so scared+unsecured...

nothing left to say...
ol of u...if u read tis entry..let us pray for da safety of ppl in Palestine...
~may they have da strength+courage to fight back

~may Allah save em from those evil=cruel Israel

ari yang memenatkan

29 december 2008
12:10am

huhu..really exhausted n tiring me...
tis is da 2nd weeding dat i attend in tis month...

arini kenduri dekat johor...
jadi pg2 da bertolak p...
afta that singgah kat melaka..ingat nak jalan2 kat one of da taman..
but suddendly it started to rain...thefore we stop by at mcd...grabbed sumthing to fill our ''big stomach'..haha...then straight away went back to kl...

on da way back,ada accident...scary gler seyh!
reached ampang bout 5++ then tgk wayang cter histeria...
huhu///bley rrr..not so kick act~

pastu p mamam..tp ngah sdp2 yucks!ada cacing plak!
terus benti mamam n blah...

n now here i am..
siiting all alone in tis house doing da story telling to u guys..hehe...

overall tho i feel really tired but i had fun+hepi at da same time

p/s:i haf fragile heart~huhu...

teruknya perasaan ini

26 december 2008
21:15

rasa penat sgt2..
its damn hard to please those people...

kadangkala terasa ingin menjerit...
hati merintih hiba...
tp apakan daya...

Tuhan,tabahkan hatiku~

: ari yang sengal+buhsan

20 December 2008
10:07am

its already 10am in da morning..
and im sitting here using ma rumate laptop, figure out wat im gonna do for da next 48 hours!gosh!!!im so trapped in this jungle...huhu..really wanna go somewhere else...

: kenangan yang terusik

13 december 2008
20:56

its raining quite heavy tis evening
and i was lying down next to ma ibu n adik...
we were talking on some stuff and all of sudden tears falling down on ma mom's face...
i noe she miss her bapak so much!

so do i...its been 5 years since he left us..
but it still feels like yesterday...he were very dear to me...i miss him much since da day he passed away...
i wish i could turn back time so dat i could spent more time wif him..but i guess
time traveling only happens in movies...
how i wish i was there,during his last day...

atuk..tho u r not here anymore...
u will awaz remains ere..in ma heart...
yong sentiasa sayangkan atuk...
n yong will awaz recite yaasin tok atuk,seperti selalu...


and ill make sure ill make u proud of me atuk...

al-fatihah for ma lurvely atuk~

: kelakar sgt2!

12 december 2009
8:52am

haha...alasan yang tidak munasabah langsung...
as ma mom said...
one day the truth will come out

Alhamdulillah..teruskan dengan segala kutukan anda~

:lyfe is colourful~

9 december 2008
19:19


arini begitu indah kerana matahari memancarkan sinarnya setelah sehari semalam menyembunyikan dirinya...
hehe..so thari buta td aku jalan-jalan
~ kesimpulannya td aku manage to go to
@ the gardens
@ midvalley megamall
@ jj au 2
@ ampang point

ahakz..byknya tmpt aku p dalam satu masa
hehe..bknnya apa..nati da back in da jungle dpt nak kuar jln2 ha...
kene "memerap" kat dlm tu...

well,tomorrow kul 10 pg da nak gerak..
harap2 selamat semuannya..InsyaAllah...

p/s: life is interesting and exciting
but only if u make it so...

hujan

8 december 2008
22:30

hujan yang turun menyebabkan aku MALAS
~ nak bangun...
~ nak buat keje...
~ nak berfikir
~ nak buat segala-galanya

hehe..tp kalaula hidup ni semudah itu..boleh bermalas2an smpai begitu...
haha..tp aku xdibesarkan dengan cara sebegitu..
bley bangun ms matahari terpacak kat kepala..juz nak tggu makan je then tido balik...

aku bersyukur coz dapat ibu yg akan "memekik" bler anak die bgn lwt ckit sdgkan ms tu jam br menunjukkan awal pagi lagi...
aku bersyukur coz dpt ibu yg suke "membebel" walau kadang2 smpai kusut pala dibuatnya...
hehe..itula ibu aku...papepun ibu-engkaulah ratu hatiku...
Alhamdulillah,aku bersyukur wanita itu ibuku..
btw,slamat hari lahir ibu..
semoga Allah sentiasa memberkati ibu serta memberi kebahagiaan seperti yang ibu harapkan...

yong sayangkan ibu~

: kusut

6 december 2008
16:52

hujan berterusan selama beberapa ari ini...
dan beberapa hari ni jugakla fikiran aku kusut..
betul ke keputusan yg aku lakukan ini?

hatiku memberontak dan seakan tertanya2...
mindaku seakan berhenti berfungsi buat seketika..
org kata buat apa yg kau rasakan betul...
yakin dengan jalan yang telah kau pilih..

tp aku?
keyakinanku hilang begitu sahaja...
aku tau kita xkan tahu selagi kita tidak melaluinya
dan aku tidak mahu menyesal begitu sahaja...

guess...
i really haf to tink deeper on tis...
if u still feel hesitate,pray to HIM..
InsyaAllah..Allah will lead you da way....

: unexpected~

26 november 2008
19:43


urm...ive been bz for da past few days since tis coming sunday i haf to go back to pahang...
haha..new sem will begin...so myza..what's ur resolution...haha..i guess same as the previous semester...

b a gud student-daughter-lover n a gud person
worst come to worst juz ignore those annoying people kan?hehe

im hepi n thankful today...Alhamdulillah...y?
becoz i bought a new perfume..(hehe.. da lama xbeli tau!)
urm...i have a family who support me well enough n one true person who lurves me for who i am...
hehe...and one more thing is i received ma result today..n guess wat...
got DL again..Alhamdulillah..all da hardwork being paid...

urm...nothing much to say...juz

langit tidak selalu cerah

hidup kita ini mmg colourful kan?
sumtimes gembira dan kadangkala berduka...
tp wadeva it is..perjuangan mesti diteruskan....

u r da only son in da house...
but how could u?
betrayed us all...

mmgla kan...
langit tidak selalu cerah...
cuma xsangka benda akan jadi even worse...

semoga duka ini bukan utk seketika...
semoga ada jalan penyelesaiannya...

:huhu..da nak bis cuti

18 november
2049

huhu...at last arini...
for da past few weeks aku dikuarantinkan coz kene infection...
Alhamdulillah..today i manage to get out from da house AGAIN!!!
hehe...da first thing yg aku bwat adalah p bank!yup!haf to setlle htg keta..
then p spektrum...hehe..one of ma fav places i guess...muahaha
then grabbed sumthing at SR--yummy (^_^)

hurm...tot of goin jalan2 to ikea tis weekend...
wanna buy sumthing there..hurm..forgot to mention ere that ikea r one of da places dat i lurveEEee so much to hang out wif ma abang...ehhe..

haha...k la...xnak cter byk..

oppss....results da nak kuar next week!
harap2 sukses...amin...

~i lurve u...yes i d0ooo!!!!!!!!

neva been kissed

17 November 2008
15.07

urm..mesti korunk pelik napa title postout aku cnikan...
ha..jgl slh anggap beb!

hehe..act td aku tgk cter tu...dilakonkan oleh drew berrymore...
hurm...benda ni bwat aku terpikir..

knp kiter bersusah payah nak biar sume org menerima kita?
knp kiter ssh payah nak please people but at da end of da day kiter yg terluka...

urm..kesimpulannya,
smpai bler2 pun kter xkan dpt nak puaskan hati sume...
mmg xdinafikan....
kawan mmg ramai...
xkiralah samada iklhas berkawan atau hanya mampu MENGUTUK apabila da xberkawan...
tp sahabat ssh nak dicari...

smpai ke mati pun mmg ssh nak mencari sahabat sejati...

to b frank...aku da hidup selama 23 tahun..Alhamdulillah...
tp sepanjang penantian aku...pencarian aku terhadap kehidupan yg lbh baik...
sdh mcm2 jns manusia yg aku temui...

haha..ada kawan yg bermusim shj.mksudnya hanya berkwn sewaktu mula persekolahan @ pembelajaran...
ada juga kawan yg utk berseronok!!!yup..tis type of ppl yg plg byk sekali aku jumpa...
hanya berkwn dgnku tuk bersuka ria...tp bile ditegur!!ceh!!die mencaci pula...
urm...tp aku xpnh menyesal...
biarla kan...at least aku tau mana yg jujur dan ikhlas dan mana yg hanya berpura2...

kepada mereka diluar sana,
yang slalu mengutuk aku dibelakang...
yang menggelarkan diriku dgn pelbagai nama...
teruskan kutukan serta cacian anda...
aku xkan lemah dgn segala hinaan anda...
sebaliknya aku akan buktikan yg hidup aku lebih baik tanya kalian semua...

kenapa?
kerna aku ada DIA...Allah Yang Esa...
aku ada keluarga yang xputus2 menyokong serta menyayangiku..
aku ada paksu+umi+bucuk..hehe...
aku ada abang yang amat menyayangiku...
dan aku ada sahabat yang benar2 IKHLAS BERSAHABAT dengannku...
itu yang penting sekali...

terima kasih Ya Allah...
aku bersyukur diatas kurniaanMU...