ari yang memenatkan

29 december 2008
12:10am

huhu..really exhausted n tiring me...
tis is da 2nd weeding dat i attend in tis month...

arini kenduri dekat johor...
jadi pg2 da bertolak p...
afta that singgah kat melaka..ingat nak jalan2 kat one of da taman..
but suddendly it started to rain...thefore we stop by at mcd...grabbed sumthing to fill our ''big stomach'..haha...then straight away went back to kl...

on da way back,ada accident...scary gler seyh!
reached ampang bout 5++ then tgk wayang cter histeria...
huhu///bley rrr..not so kick act~

pastu p mamam..tp ngah sdp2 yucks!ada cacing plak!
terus benti mamam n blah...

n now here i am..
siiting all alone in tis house doing da story telling to u guys..hehe...

overall tho i feel really tired but i had fun+hepi at da same time

p/s:i haf fragile heart~huhu...

teruknya perasaan ini

26 december 2008
21:15

rasa penat sgt2..
its damn hard to please those people...

kadangkala terasa ingin menjerit...
hati merintih hiba...
tp apakan daya...

Tuhan,tabahkan hatiku~

: ari yang sengal+buhsan

20 December 2008
10:07am

its already 10am in da morning..
and im sitting here using ma rumate laptop, figure out wat im gonna do for da next 48 hours!gosh!!!im so trapped in this jungle...huhu..really wanna go somewhere else...

: kenangan yang terusik

13 december 2008
20:56

its raining quite heavy tis evening
and i was lying down next to ma ibu n adik...
we were talking on some stuff and all of sudden tears falling down on ma mom's face...
i noe she miss her bapak so much!

so do i...its been 5 years since he left us..
but it still feels like yesterday...he were very dear to me...i miss him much since da day he passed away...
i wish i could turn back time so dat i could spent more time wif him..but i guess
time traveling only happens in movies...
how i wish i was there,during his last day...

atuk..tho u r not here anymore...
u will awaz remains ere..in ma heart...
yong sentiasa sayangkan atuk...
n yong will awaz recite yaasin tok atuk,seperti selalu...


and ill make sure ill make u proud of me atuk...

al-fatihah for ma lurvely atuk~

: kelakar sgt2!

12 december 2009
8:52am

haha...alasan yang tidak munasabah langsung...
as ma mom said...
one day the truth will come out

Alhamdulillah..teruskan dengan segala kutukan anda~

:lyfe is colourful~

9 december 2008
19:19


arini begitu indah kerana matahari memancarkan sinarnya setelah sehari semalam menyembunyikan dirinya...
hehe..so thari buta td aku jalan-jalan
~ kesimpulannya td aku manage to go to
@ the gardens
@ midvalley megamall
@ jj au 2
@ ampang point

ahakz..byknya tmpt aku p dalam satu masa
hehe..bknnya apa..nati da back in da jungle dpt nak kuar jln2 ha...
kene "memerap" kat dlm tu...

well,tomorrow kul 10 pg da nak gerak..
harap2 selamat semuannya..InsyaAllah...

p/s: life is interesting and exciting
but only if u make it so...

hujan

8 december 2008
22:30

hujan yang turun menyebabkan aku MALAS
~ nak bangun...
~ nak buat keje...
~ nak berfikir
~ nak buat segala-galanya

hehe..tp kalaula hidup ni semudah itu..boleh bermalas2an smpai begitu...
haha..tp aku xdibesarkan dengan cara sebegitu..
bley bangun ms matahari terpacak kat kepala..juz nak tggu makan je then tido balik...

aku bersyukur coz dapat ibu yg akan "memekik" bler anak die bgn lwt ckit sdgkan ms tu jam br menunjukkan awal pagi lagi...
aku bersyukur coz dpt ibu yg suke "membebel" walau kadang2 smpai kusut pala dibuatnya...
hehe..itula ibu aku...papepun ibu-engkaulah ratu hatiku...
Alhamdulillah,aku bersyukur wanita itu ibuku..
btw,slamat hari lahir ibu..
semoga Allah sentiasa memberkati ibu serta memberi kebahagiaan seperti yang ibu harapkan...

yong sayangkan ibu~

: kusut

6 december 2008
16:52

hujan berterusan selama beberapa ari ini...
dan beberapa hari ni jugakla fikiran aku kusut..
betul ke keputusan yg aku lakukan ini?

hatiku memberontak dan seakan tertanya2...
mindaku seakan berhenti berfungsi buat seketika..
org kata buat apa yg kau rasakan betul...
yakin dengan jalan yang telah kau pilih..

tp aku?
keyakinanku hilang begitu sahaja...
aku tau kita xkan tahu selagi kita tidak melaluinya
dan aku tidak mahu menyesal begitu sahaja...

guess...
i really haf to tink deeper on tis...
if u still feel hesitate,pray to HIM..
InsyaAllah..Allah will lead you da way....

: unexpected~

26 november 2008
19:43


urm...ive been bz for da past few days since tis coming sunday i haf to go back to pahang...
haha..new sem will begin...so myza..what's ur resolution...haha..i guess same as the previous semester...

b a gud student-daughter-lover n a gud person
worst come to worst juz ignore those annoying people kan?hehe

im hepi n thankful today...Alhamdulillah...y?
becoz i bought a new perfume..(hehe.. da lama xbeli tau!)
urm...i have a family who support me well enough n one true person who lurves me for who i am...
hehe...and one more thing is i received ma result today..n guess wat...
got DL again..Alhamdulillah..all da hardwork being paid...

urm...nothing much to say...juz

langit tidak selalu cerah

hidup kita ini mmg colourful kan?
sumtimes gembira dan kadangkala berduka...
tp wadeva it is..perjuangan mesti diteruskan....

u r da only son in da house...
but how could u?
betrayed us all...

mmgla kan...
langit tidak selalu cerah...
cuma xsangka benda akan jadi even worse...

semoga duka ini bukan utk seketika...
semoga ada jalan penyelesaiannya...

:huhu..da nak bis cuti

18 november
2049

huhu...at last arini...
for da past few weeks aku dikuarantinkan coz kene infection...
Alhamdulillah..today i manage to get out from da house AGAIN!!!
hehe...da first thing yg aku bwat adalah p bank!yup!haf to setlle htg keta..
then p spektrum...hehe..one of ma fav places i guess...muahaha
then grabbed sumthing at SR--yummy (^_^)

hurm...tot of goin jalan2 to ikea tis weekend...
wanna buy sumthing there..hurm..forgot to mention ere that ikea r one of da places dat i lurveEEee so much to hang out wif ma abang...ehhe..

haha...k la...xnak cter byk..

oppss....results da nak kuar next week!
harap2 sukses...amin...

~i lurve u...yes i d0ooo!!!!!!!!

neva been kissed

17 November 2008
15.07

urm..mesti korunk pelik napa title postout aku cnikan...
ha..jgl slh anggap beb!

hehe..act td aku tgk cter tu...dilakonkan oleh drew berrymore...
hurm...benda ni bwat aku terpikir..

knp kiter bersusah payah nak biar sume org menerima kita?
knp kiter ssh payah nak please people but at da end of da day kiter yg terluka...

urm..kesimpulannya,
smpai bler2 pun kter xkan dpt nak puaskan hati sume...
mmg xdinafikan....
kawan mmg ramai...
xkiralah samada iklhas berkawan atau hanya mampu MENGUTUK apabila da xberkawan...
tp sahabat ssh nak dicari...

smpai ke mati pun mmg ssh nak mencari sahabat sejati...

to b frank...aku da hidup selama 23 tahun..Alhamdulillah...
tp sepanjang penantian aku...pencarian aku terhadap kehidupan yg lbh baik...
sdh mcm2 jns manusia yg aku temui...

haha..ada kawan yg bermusim shj.mksudnya hanya berkwn sewaktu mula persekolahan @ pembelajaran...
ada juga kawan yg utk berseronok!!!yup..tis type of ppl yg plg byk sekali aku jumpa...
hanya berkwn dgnku tuk bersuka ria...tp bile ditegur!!ceh!!die mencaci pula...
urm...tp aku xpnh menyesal...
biarla kan...at least aku tau mana yg jujur dan ikhlas dan mana yg hanya berpura2...

kepada mereka diluar sana,
yang slalu mengutuk aku dibelakang...
yang menggelarkan diriku dgn pelbagai nama...
teruskan kutukan serta cacian anda...
aku xkan lemah dgn segala hinaan anda...
sebaliknya aku akan buktikan yg hidup aku lebih baik tanya kalian semua...

kenapa?
kerna aku ada DIA...Allah Yang Esa...
aku ada keluarga yang xputus2 menyokong serta menyayangiku..
aku ada paksu+umi+bucuk..hehe...
aku ada abang yang amat menyayangiku...
dan aku ada sahabat yang benar2 IKHLAS BERSAHABAT dengannku...
itu yang penting sekali...

terima kasih Ya Allah...
aku bersyukur diatas kurniaanMU...

:freedom

8 november 2008

uhuh...lama tol aku xtulis kat cni...
Alhamdulillah...br pas xm n thankful coz dpt lalui dgn baik...
huhu...pray real hard n hope to get DL again tis sem..InsyaAllah...

so...wat's da next thing to do?

hurm...tommorow tot of goin out..haha..where to?
still havent made up ma mind..so,juz wait til 2morw dear...

owh..forget to mention ere..
u guys eva wonder y ma shout out ere a bit different?
its becoz i manage to "breath" again afta a while..
Alhamdulillah..wat a relief...
n its gud to b back...

to be da real me...
abd tis time for really a long time......(^-^)



**** image dat tis is me***
at last FREEDOM is in ma hand....

[ to ma: kawan or shud I say ex-kawan?]

12 october 2008

thanx for ol da sweet+painful memories..
neva tot dat our fwenship will end up in tis way..
i feel hurt but i neva regret for what has happened..
i feel quite guilty but i feel relief at da sama time..

~ nothing much to say ~

juz hope ur hepi wif da path dat u choose...

after a while...

20 september 2008

heh..sebulan afta' da accident..Alhamdulillah..aku masih bernyawa..
syukur sesgt!!!pada sahabat yang sentiasa mgambil berat..trimas yg xterhingga aku ucapkan..
well,x byk yg aku nak tulis..juz

1. analyse SP Setia Bhd da siap..total 75 pages including table of contents..
will submit it on 22nd sept

2. puasa tis time xterasa sgt coz ma life quite hectic for da past 2 mnts...letih sesgt2!!!but its a gud thing act coz aku xpyh pk bukan2..

3. urm..for SIFE penjara projek..rite now aku adala PM (project manager) goshh!!!byk benda yg aku nak kene buat afta tis...xper...papepun biar xm lps dulu..then only will concentrate on tis project

4. SIFE teambuilding on da 21st-23rd Nov at S.A...

5. Alhamdulillah....mid-term results so far aku berpuas hati coz i wasnt expected da results to b as gud as tis time..syukran Ya Allah...

6. huarrrgh!!!but then on the other hand ma precious thing a.k.a ma laptop...huhu...crack!!!
huhu..haf to buy a new one is it?hehe..no need-la..since there is one generous man dat will fix ma laptop!!!thanx dear!!!appreaciate dat much!!!hehe..

lalala...

overall...life aku even tho bz but bertambah hepi+bahagia=Alhamdulillah...

semoga bahagia ini bukan tuk seketika shj...Amin..

~ masa yang sibuk~

9 August 2008
1602

summary selepas sebulan...

1) SIFE project- still under progress...been strees lately since da other person haven't response...huhu...do i haf to wait more?its been "100" days mam...

2)paperwork finance---hurm...nak komen penya?journal xjupe2 lagi...really tough for me...

3)account --- SP Setia..analyze their company in terms of their FS--Profit--so and so...

4)micro---hehe..so far tis one yg kira success-lah...tho da survey form have not been finalized..but at least there is sumthing kan?haha

5)ISLB---hehe...haf way to go!!!yes!!!!!

apart from that...cant wait to go home...+++++ OTH is coming back!!!already miss 'ma' mR lucas (ceh!pasan gler!)

i have to admit that day by day its been really hard for me...since im da particular a.k.a fussy so i always wanted things been done as i planned...tho sumtimes lots of unpredictable things happened...therefore, ive made up ma mind...heh..i tot or shud i say hope...

- i will be more concern wif ppl
- try to become more patience(correct me if im wrong)
- smile more coz most of da time i looked like an alien..haha...no la...kinda strict a.k.a serious person ( but only wen it comes to work)
- happier than before...huhu...so pathetic of me...


goshhhh!!!!!!!!!!how i wish i can ice skating at tis moment.......
cant wait to c ma "soulmate"..........

kekecewaan aku............

aku xtau mana yg nak dimulakan...
lately ni byk sgt bnda yg melanda diri aku....
aku rasa saat aku plg hepi ms kat sife ritu...
frankly,da lama sgt aku xpnh rasa hepi cmtu..how i wish i could turn back time...

well..aku xnak bkk pekung kat dada sindri...
tp,baru2 bnda dtg bertubi2..bertalu2..
kekadang tu aku rasa lemah sesgt!!!
aku tau stiap musibah yg dtg ada hikmahnya...selain tuk menjadikan kita lebih tabah n kuat dlm menghadapi dugaan ini....
tp aku pun manusia biasa...
aku seorang perempuan......juz an ordinary gurl..
aku rasa berat nak jaga sume bnda....nak kene jadi kuat tiap masa..
bistu bler aku lemah sapa yg aku nak mengadu?siapa yg akan tumpang simpati?
none aite?coz org xnmpk pe yg aku rasa...
aku tau aku xptt persoalkan bnda mcm ni..tp things r getting even worst frm year to year...

aku slalu pk..adakah dgn pergi jauh bley selesaikan mslah ni?
urm,xjugak kan?
bler jd mcm ni...aku jadi benci..(exclude ma family,ok?!)
serius aku benci pada semua...agaknyer kata2 mereka2 tu xleh pakai kan?
aku mmg xleh nak percaya pada sesiapa kan?or to rely on sumone kan?
hahaha..except for ma 'everlasting soulmate' kan?

but then wadeva it is haf to b strong kan?like ill awaz do....
aku harap pemergian aku nati akan membuka lembaran baru dlm hidup aku...InsyaAllah..
pada semua..aku minta maaf atas segalanya......

:dugaan

16 June 2008
1717pm

hurm..lately ni byk btol bnda yg berlaku...yg myedihkan aku..
aku tau ada sesetengah perkara kter kuat n ada sesetengah tu tidak..
well,nama pun manusia kan?biasala tu..
byk tol dugaan yg berlaku---yg dtg dan pergi...
semuanya ntuk menguji kiter...

tp baru2 ni ada sesuatu yg berlaku yg menyebabkan aku rasa sedih sgt2!
aku rasa tersepit...tp aku tau semuanyer berpunca dr aku sindri...
xbyk yg aku mintak..cuma aku hrp dipermudahkan segalanya...
Ya Allah..KAU Maha Mengetahui kejadian langit dan bumi...
Tabahkan hatiku Ya Allah~hambaMU ini lemah xterdaya rasanya...

p/s:tok ngah aku meninggal smlm n pg td sahabtku Yahafizi telah kembali ke rahmatullah...
~semoga Allah tempatkan mereka dikalangan org2 yg soleh...Aminn...
---Al-Fatihah---

~hurm..kuiz...

26 May 2008
1854pm

hehe..soklan ni bezfwen aku yg fwd...

1. gelaran awk bg sya?
2. lagu yg bwat awak rindu sya?
3. apa yg bwat awak ingat pada sya?
4. awak nak sya jd apa tuk awak?
5. nasihat utk sya
6. nama sya yg awk save kat hp awak
7. bnci or suke sya?sbb bnci or suke?

dr roomateku...
1. ~kak mijo
2. ~fullhouse,mygurl n byk sgt (mmg fav aku tuk mlayan perasaan)
3. ~ lesung pipit,ketot?,otai,bju sejuk warna kelabu ngan idung akak..ahahha
4. ~sahabat merangkap kakakku selamanya (i will,InsyaAllah)
5. ~ ikut kata hati n enjoy ja idupni..dun tension2 n appy sokmo (haha..okies dear!i'll try)
6. ~kak miza max,kak miza celcom,kak miza umah
7. ~ suke sbb otak akak gler2 ngan ble bsama ngan akak sya leh wat apa yg sya suke

( 26-05-08 -1647)

dr adik yg jauh tp dkt dhati...
1. ~akak yg comey
2. ~i dun wanna miss a thing - aerosmith (terharunyer dikkk!!!)
3. ~ur smile!
4. ~someone special!
5. ~snym slalu
6. ~kak Nurul Hamiza
7. ~suke sgt2 coz u r so sweet (thanx adik!akak syg adik tau!)

(26-05-08 -1900)

dr bdk sengal
1. ~dakcik
2. ~pergilah syg
3. ~kenakalan dakcik
4. ~kwn rapat dakcik
5. ~always take care of urself n ur famili
6. ~hamiza
7. ~ske ;)..dakcik sempoi,brave n cute (haha..cute eh?hehe..thanx)

(26-05-08 - 1642)

dr sui may a.k.a sifoOoo
1. ~miz
2. ~best friend
3.~come,gud fwen
4. ~b urself :)
5. ~jgn endahkan kutukan org len..nati i gi hantukkan kepala diaorg yek!(i really lurve u sifOoo for dat coz no matter wat u r there wif me)
6. ~miza
7. ~ske- sbb tulus ikhlas sbg kwn & xpnh menipu!*hugs* (*muacks)

dr cik musem a.k.a da best bud eva...

1. ~miza
2. ~letter to you (lg ni mmg kenangan indah antara aku dan dia)
3. ~mcm mcm
4. ~ xmentiond ere (hehe..but wadeva it is aku sntiasa jd bezfwen ko smpai bler2)
5. ~jage diri leklok
6. ~myza 'rox-av
7. ~ske,sbb ko kawan baek aku (dan ko ttp ma bez bud)

ada msg last dr cik musem take care~

oohhh plz...nOt again!!!

22 May 2008
2001pm

huhu..plz...jgnla gado lagi..
pala aku+otak aku+hati aku+diri aku seakan2 da xleh tima...
aku penat sgt2!rasa mcm da xtertanggung jer beban kat hati ni...

Ya Allah..
KAU Maha Mengetahui segala yg berlaku..
yang tersurat disebalik yang tersirat...
Tabahkan hatiku agar redha dgn segala suratan ini...Aminn...

plz:kembalikan suasana yg dulu...yg semakin hilang ini...